Worlds Worst Mom Award goes to................ME!!!
Seriously, I just lost my shit on a 2 year old!! (let the judging begin) I have had enough! Now that I look at it it wasn't that big of a deal for me to freak out about but when you have said the same thing 20 times a day everyday for 6 months, you tend to go a little bat-shit crazy. Add in that I haven't slept in 4 days because of a sick baby and been to 2 doctors offices and 2 hospitals for them to tell you that your baby "has what everybody else has". Also lack of coffee because you forgot to buy creamer, and that the little sleep you did get last night was on the floor with the baby, all of that together didn't help the situation.
In case you didn't know I have a 2 1/2 yr old son and a 6 month old daughter. Well my son can be overly loving and silly and that loving and silliness can hurt the baby. So I tell him that if mommy isn't with him that he needs to leave her alone- meaning stay the F*%$ away from her because your going to hurt her. He knows what it means and he chooses not to listen. Well this morning, while baby is crying off and on and I am trying to get laundry done because there are no bibs clean, big guy decides that it is a good time to jump around the baby that is laying on her blanket playing on the floor. So I tell him to stay away from her and even bring him over to his toys so he can be busy away from her. I tell him I am going upstairs and I will be right back. I come down stairs and find him going over to her, so raising my voice I tell him " no stay away form her, go over to your toys" after he goes back I go back upstairs to grab more laundry. When I come back down he is trying to lay on top of her!! Then I loose it!! I yell. I pick him up and tell him about not listening and that he could hurt her and I put him in his room and close the door. More for his safety then punishment because mommy is fuming!!
Yes, now that I think about it I could have picked her up and put her in her chair or bed or somewhere where she couldn't get hurt. But I have the expectation that my 2 1/2 year old can listen for 5 minutes so I can get stuff done. I have this expectation because I have seen him do it before.
So after being an asshole and calming down, I go upstairs and ask him if he is ready to listen, he says yes and we hug. I tell him mommy is sorry for yelling and we have a cuddle. He's not scarred by it and seems just fine now. I feel terrible and I know I could have prevented the whole situation.
Does anyone else just loose it once in a while? Or am I just the asshole?